Evolution when

Exposure leaves you open to danger.
Preservation comes in all shapes and forms

I don’t think they like my style.

slick as the curl on
the first full growth of hair 

I used to twist her back
and forth 

in the shower for hours 

when I  think of you

our convergent points are
the words I write

filled with blurring
and repititions

boxed inside of one another

I used to think
that when

I reached inside

Id find more than just

a rabbit in your hat
rabbit in your hat


when i reach inside 
i often find more than
a rabbit
hidden in your hat

 The subjective dictionary

This occlusion (or defiant resistance)

A weather front has formed and
You are my act and instance of being occluded.

The motional verb used
To close up this entry or opening
The complete obstruction of my breath passage.

I am without articulation
Without speech or sound.

To impede and hinder
This length you hold
You exhibit such recalcitrance

All stopped up tight
The predicament lay hidden for years

By absorption or adsorption
My adsorbate adhesion,
you have undercut and enclosed my warmth.

My variable became inacessible
By declaring another with the same name

Within the scope of the first
The shadow occlusive intrans
Is said of us

To fit together with the cusps of opposing
Where there is no way out

To become occluded

Date:	2007-10-01 21:57
Subject:	to twist back and forth
Security:	Public
Mood:	pensive
Music:	Badly Drawn Boy

When lust pools itself

In the saggy crutch of your sock

That's when you know

You're done for...

Date:	2007-09-24 20:45
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	dorky
Music:	Kings of Convenience

Jupiter V.

Amalthea encased in slow close orbit around Jupiter

Smouldering within the outer edge of the gossamer ring,

Is breathing dust

Ejected from the other.

From her presenting surface,

Jupiter offers

A doomed sight in sky, appearing 92 times

Larger than the full moon

Amalthea sighing louder than the inner satellites of Jupiter

Is thought to consist

Of porous

Water ice

With unknown amounts of other materials

Her surface features include

Deep craters, high mountains

And long low cries

My whole body has turned cold
waiting for you.
literally

Date:	2007-09-23 00:40
Subject:	something about desire which comes from being with another
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained
Music:	Juarez

 I'm wanting more than I have. 
more than i'm allowed to want. more than I can I have.

i'm wanting you to want me 
the way I want you 

and right now I know that you dont have
but I want it none-the-less

and I can palm this off as something else, which I will do if asked
each and every time

and I know I will, each and everytime
I see you,

but I want it nonetheless

Date:	2007-09-17 20:46
Subject:	sport before bed
Security:	Public
Mood:	mischievous
Music:	speak for me - cat power

Making a plan to take this play
I've signed you up in my head.
I scratch lines in the dirt and walk them 
open legge'd

I’m gonna call out your team 
And kiss them sweet
And bright and wet
And red.
Running Red
Red rover red.

I'll take to the field and stand you centre of it

Date:	2007-08-16 18:19
Subject:	Just like Heaven
Security:	Public
Mood:	high
Music:	the Cure

Show me Show me Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream she said
The one that makes me laugh she said
And threw her arms around my neck

Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I’ll run away with you
I’ll run away with you

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow

Why are you so far away? she said
Why won’t you ever know that I’m in love with you
That I’m in love with you

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You’re just like a dream
                       - You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes

And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

Date:	2007-08-15 22:20
Subject:	Lullaby
Security:	Public
Mood:	complacent
Music:	I must've been asleep for days

"I must've had this
obvious lust
written about me.
Little girl lust
written all about me".
                            
                                     - When thinking of my
                                        face everytime
                                       She walked in.

Date:	2007-08-14 19:31
Subject:	Show me how you do that trick
Security:	Public
Mood:	giddy
Music:	The Cure!

After Near Tears and a RREALLLY big situation, 

I finally managed to secure tickets to the Tegan and Sarah concert!!!!!
thankyou ticketek - but really you need to think about getting direct debit - what centrury is ticket buying living in?

www.ticketek.com.au

I have been musically blessed this week! 

What with seeing The Cure on Sunday night (I cant even begin to exclaim over the absolutely amazing concert that was) and the next day procurring T & S tickets, 
all in Melbourne (the slowly creeping up to be the BCE (best city Eva), 

I know there will be music in my heaven!

Melbourne was for me , this weekend, 

things like this,

code name 54 finding out she will have a foot in every type of blog world soon...! 
GFY (quite frankly yuk) - as a best ever accronym, and completely useable
Being rejected from 2! Ghey bars in Melbourne - whilst sober, and with other hot hot resbians and gay boys! Then spending the evening planning my professional revenge
Love advice from the stranger at the next table - we could've sampled that 

maryjanecassady

Date:	2007-08-07 21:01
Subject:	A marriage of words
Security:	Public
Mood:	nostalgic
Music:	I like the free days with no reservations, I like it my way with no limitations

All over me

Now the other girls are all about me,

Prancing on stage
Swarming with self ardent importance 
by your appointment they 
cause my mind to circle and

I slam the doors

And steal back any gift I can find

Which I once offered so freely

to you

I want to scream down her throat

Right into that stomach you lie against.

Plant seeds of the distrust

Which you have wreathed all about me.

 
She sits there

On my stage

In my play,

Looking at my script.

        Full of blanket compliments

send/t across this space,

Penetrating my ether with such 
Insidious by-lines which
you do not discern

From her eyelash tinted tone.
 

And I wrote her in

With such a part to play;

I lined her up

For this

Such irony

We act at

Appendix:

To give full expression to contradictory or complementary impulses and attitudes

Progressions of a seaweed girl 
29/11/06

Lingering onwards (slow as seaweed)
distant like the smile of a
reflection
on my landscape of water
we begin

slipping downwards
she speaks with melodies
that slide the silk of a 
thigh

underwater sweets
sweets underwater

slowly sinking (she is the anchor
I could disarm upon)

this lingering lowly sea girl is
when sipping the sucking
with alternate motion

making music in a native tongue

Date:	2007-08-02 20:39
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake

Slipping

Tripping

Treading

Spreading

You said you found the way 
To traverse meaning, transcribe space 
And trespass time 
With a passion of permanency

So I track your palimpsest in this slow pace 
And the ships sail sideways on your world

And the islands offer their lakes as sacrifice to your worship
Their banks are silent statues with quicksand openings to places underneath

Off the quay to sink beneath

Map me the reeds, 
And I'll spend my life hollowing out 
To breathe my last four breaths getting back to you

I can dive that low

alos

all loss

also 

alas

CHARACTER PROFILES

Date:	2007-01-23 08:57
Subject:	Expectations to meet and be met
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	the cure

I need clarification of LJ etiquette:

Are the details exposed in entries allowed to be discussed between people in the concrete of one's physical reality?

When one is Lj friends with someone, as well as actual in the flesh friends - are both/either parties allowed to refer to details (sometimes explicit) written up in LJ when meeting in the flesh?

Or is there a code of silence shrouding my journal so that when we meet - we may secret handshake, nod three times and wink the left eye - but then leave it at that?

And what happens when the friendship one shares on LJ varies in the level of intensity to that of the friendship in flesh friendship?

How many comments are to be made before a BFFE friendship is established and is this automatically transferred into flesh life?

Am I allowed to share interpretations of my LJ/flesh friends deepest tribulations diatribed online with those of the outer sanctum (those not linked to LJ)?

Conversely where do the obligations of my LJ and in the flesh friends and those that are both, lay?

Where is the code of conduct displayed?

I'm in a grey area right now................